My First Kiss With My Special LoveI was on a business trip and planned to visit my special lady friend Jackie.
Jackie and I have a relationship that is not very typical. We are very close. We talk about many things and share our deepest private secrets with each other. We lift each other up when one of us is down. We say we love each other. But we haven't had a physical relationship.
Her husband was out of the house at a business function. It was me and her and her two children. The first part of the night was just eating dinner, drinking wine, and playing with her kids. They are such sweet loving kids.
It was now bedtime for the kids. She started to put her kids to bed. I was sweating from running around with the kids. (I wonder if she thought I was sweating for other reasons.) I went outside on the deck to cool off. It was such a nice cool night. Shortly after I went outside Jackie came outside to join me on the sofa.
As we sat there on the sofa, I immediately was overcome with a feeling that I hadn't felt in over 20 years. It was that nervous, exciting, giddy feeling that a high school guy has when he is in the presence of a girl who he has a crush on.
My head was spinning with things like should I hold her hand, should I put my arm around her, what should I talk about, etc. I didn't want the moment to end. I felt young again. This beautiful lady gave me a feeling that I hadn't felt in such a long time.
I just wanted to savor every moment. But I knew our time was limited. I love this lady so much but it is not a lusty love, it is a special love that is hard to describe. I didn't want to do anything to ruin our special relationship.
But I thought I would do something safe. Why waste such a romantic moment sitting on the end of a sofa with my arms folded while my special love is sitting right next to me. So I put my hand on hers and put my arm around her. It took courage to this. I was nervous like a high school kid.
She then held my hand, kissed it, and snuggled up to me. I thought to myself thank God I didn't mess this up. I was on a cloud. My special friend was there in my arms being held tightly. I could have spent the entire night just sitting there with her.
What was amazing to me was that typically I would get really horny in a situation like this and be driving to rip off our clothes and get it on. But I did not have this feeling. I just wanted to savor the closeness we had. We were together as one. Our bodies were connected and our spirits were connected. I guess this is what true romance is. I think I finally felt what it is like to have a true romantic connection with a person you love.
As we sat there together the time didn't go fast. I was able to just relax and enjoy our closeness. I remember thinking I was bummed that there were so many clouds in the sky. I was wishing to see more stars. Go figure I'm here in such a romantic moment and what is going through my mind is that I wanted to make it even more romantic by seeing more stars.
Then my special friend said what the ... and for a moment I thought something bad had happened. Then she climbed up and leaned toward me. That beautiful face approached my face. Her beautiful lips parted so slightly and I could not believe what was about to happen. I was going to kiss my special friend who I love dearly.
We kissed and kissed. It was a bit awkward though at first because I haven't kissed another person romantically in a long time.
I was totally aware of time and my surroundings until we started kissing. Then all I could concentrate on was her. I became totally immersed in the moment.
I knew that my friend really liked to kiss. So I wondered if I was a good enough kisser. The thoughts going through my head were: Should I tilt my head left or right? Should I use more tongue or less tongue? Should I be aggressive or soft? I was wondering what was going through her mind. When was the last time you had to think of these things?
I am not sure how I did but all I know is that I was no happy to just be in her presence. I knew the night couldn't go on for many hours but I hoped it would. I would have loved to just fall asleep together there on the sofa in each other's arms.
We left the patio and went back inside. I was nervous about getting caught out here. We kissed a couple more times in the kitchen. I left before her husband came home. I was so happy to have experienced such a special moment with a person who I love.
I will always remember this special night. The closeness we felt sitting on the sofa and the total feeling of romance and spiritual connection that was there in the air.
I wish I could rewind time and figure out a way to have this person in my life every minute of every day.
I love you Jackie!!!
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